I'm going to start this off with an excerpt of The New York Times circulated 9/2003


"You've failed many times although you may not remember.

You fell down the first time you tried to walk. You almost drowned the first time you tried to swim, didn't you?

Did you hit the ball the first time you swung a bat? Heavy hitters, the ones who hit the most home runs, also strike out a lot.

RH Macy failed seven times before his store in New York caught on. English novelist, John Creasey got 753 rejections slips before he published 564 books.

Babe Ruth struck out 1330 times, but he also hit 714 home runs.

Don't worry about failure. Worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try.

I am not going to say that I am fearless and never worried about failing because that is not true. But, I am more open to taking these chances and falling on my face and I am recognizing that these fears and worries are only there for I am SUPER PASSIONATE about it and; therefore, it is super important to me.

I want you to think about something that you are so passionate and it is so important to you, that you have apprehensions on acting on it and moving toward it.  Why are we this way? Is it because we WANT it so badly, that we want to be perfect, and afraid we won't hit the mark? Afraid it won't be what we thought it would be? The list can go on and on and on, but just realize if you have that fear, that gut feeling of nerves...know it is super important to try and push forward.  It's important and should be pursued, no matter what the outcome.

I am definitely still a work in progress and these last few weeks have been testaments to it. I have been suppose to make SCARY phone calls to help me with my 8 week goal I am doing during the Breakthrough and today marked the start of week 4.....Guess how many scary phone calls I have made in this process??
ONE....yep, just one. My hands were clammy, I took forever to hit send when dialing the number and when I did, I felt my heart racing out of my chest. But, I did it, and after, was it scary? HECK YES!! But, did I survive?? YEP. Did I get an answer I was looking for to move me forward? YES.....so, why haven't I continued making these calls?????

FEAR--WORRY OF FAILURE. MY OWN SELF DOUBT. MY INSECURITIES. ALl of it is still there and they may always be there..hey I am human after all...But I really want to go after and live my purpose, I have to do the things that scare me. I have to do the things that have me afraid of failure, for that is how I am going to move forward... If I sit back and wait for things to come to me or do the things that are in my comfort zone.. I am wasting my ability, my talent and my purpose. I am missing out on the possibilities that are right there in front of me for I am shutting them down before even trying.

So, this is sort of an accountability as you will, and I hope motivation for those reading, that it is okay to have fear. and worry. But do not let those fears stop you from going after what you want. For you will find that yes, it may be scary at first, but once you do it, it wasn't as bad as you thought, or perhaps it was. Either way, you will never know the opportunities that can arise if you sit back and do nothing.

So, here I go....a phone call will be made this week...I am scared. I am nervous, but it is for I know it is important to me so I must face this fear and do it anyway.

A lot has happened over the year my husband and I moved here.

We started out not knowing anybody here in California, for everyone we knew, family and friends, were back east...to having so many talented and aspiring actors and friends with our acting class and improv class.

It is true what they say--hard work, dedication and just treating others the way you wanted to be treated, pays off.  Myself as well as 6 others are officially the newest troupe to hit LA Connection Comedy Theatre...I am proud to introduce you to GROUP TEXT.

We each bring something new and unique to our group and we are working hard on becoming a great improv group!

Working on focusing on long form as well as short, we had our 2nd show this past Saturday night.  It went really well and I am happy for the turn out we had. We want to be able to provide those that come for pure joy, a great show. Of course, it is unscripted but we have been prepping to set ourselves up for success. we are working outside of class to really get to know one another, know our strengths and weaknesses and bettering ourselves from it to make our team whole. This is where we get to experiment and try new games, new forms, and see what works. This makes us better actors and, well, better people to be around. I am growing from each individual in this group and I can't wait until we have a weekly spot.

We are performing again for a special cause on the 24th of this month with another improv troupe- The Squirts- to support and raise for breast cancer awareness, so definitely come out and show some support. We go on at 10:30, but you can come and catch all the troupes starting at 7 PM.





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We will have one more show to end up the month, Oct 30th, at 7 PM. We look forward to seeing you there and BTW, it's BYOB !!

I am loving the challenge and the experience and I have a feeling before the end of the year, we will have a permanent weekly spot and time and I can't wait to share it with all of you!

Here is a sneak peak into the group (minus 1) from last week's performance--we are breaking it down with some Beastie Rap! (pics courtesy of Ashley Undercuffler--thanks girl!)

Yes, I had to throw in a Disney Frozen reference! But, I promise it has a connection with this blog!

This past week, I have been working on trying to allow myself to have more fun and not be all about business. I mean, that is not a way to live your life. But, I am also very careful in not allowing myself to have TOO Much fun and get off track, for with my personality, that is So easy to happen!

I truly believe that you have to live your life by your purpose and also be able to ENJOY it. It is not too much fun if you are all work and no play. But it is also not fun to be all play and not moving forward.  Quite a predicament, right?

So, this week, my husband and I took a day off from the world and spent it together, and what better place than to do it at the HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH- Disneyland!

We were there all day, leaving the house at 6 Am and not returning until after midnight. (Yes, we are DIE HARD FANS!) But, in that moment, I really did not think about all the "busy work" I had to do, or follow up with messages, connections, etc..but instead, just lived in the present and enjoyed my time there.

This is how I am able to live my purpose but also enjoy my life. It is not always easy in these times where the world is literally at our fingertips, but I will admit, it felt really good to be able to unplug and just BE!

I am someone that tends to stress of ALL the things I HAVE to do, and WANT To do, and then get easily distracted and put things off. So, I really believe it is great to have a harmony between work and play. So you are not in too deep in one over the other. I still have a ways to go and I know I will fail, stumble and fall flat on my face, but I know this is how I am going to grow.  This is how I will live my purpose... and this is how I will be able to HAVE FUN and LIVE MY LIFE!

Today was the first day of The Actors' Business Breakthrough with Dallas Travers. The past month and a half has been prep work and a lot of research...

Now, it is time to take that prep work and put it into action.  This can be a scary thing for this breakthrough is to really make me get out there what it is I want in my career and go take a quantum leap. Leap of faith, courage and belief that I am here and I CAN live my purpose.

I'm super excited and will be honest nervous taking part in this new adventure. It is an 8 week course so I have to have an 8 week goal.  This goal is to give me something that I REALLY want so I can't take the easy way out. I am going to go ALL in and finally take charge of my career. I already put my goal out in the universe by sharing it with my husband and all the fellow actors in the Breakthrough with me. But, I am going to make it even more universally known by putting it out here in my blog.

These next 8 weeks, I am going to focus and take the necessary action steps and discipline I need to help me build a solid, strong relationship with Casting Directors that align with my ultimate vision within this career. ( Leading Female Actress in a Major Motion ACTION film)   So, focusing on fewer people, fewer goals, and taking it a step at a time.

I will be the first to admit that I have been in the hustle wheel for a while. I get motivated, start something, stay consistent and then fall off and lose momentum. I know this will be a challenge but I am ready to take this on. I know I can no longer take the safe routes for that has led me nowhere. I have to break the MOLD and I am so excited to apply what I have already learned from Dallas Travers' Actors Business Blueprint. 

This is just the beginning and for those reading, I want to leave you with this.  You truly can LIVE the life YOU WANT! But, you have to not be afraid to ASK THE REAL QUESTIONS, ASK FOR WHAT YOU WANT and then of course TAKE THE ACTION STEPS that will lead you to your goals.

It will not be easy, but it will be worth it. We must learn to fail and not be afraid to experiment. If we want a change, we have to be willing to make a change.

Well, my friends, that change...starts today!